The meaning of dreams.

So, after I got back from class Wednesday night, I was exhausted. I fell asleep quite quickly and woke up around 4am in tears. Here's why:
The dream started out with me at school doing my normal stuff, going between classes, finding a place to park, etc. When I get in my car to leave, I noticed that my passenger windows are gone! I look over and this guy is trying to carjack me! I can't get my car to start, and suddenly a gun is against my head saying drive, bitch, drive. (I know I'm a bitch, but c'mon, even my brain should be nicer to me!) Anyways, as we're leaving, he keeps the gun out of view of everyone coming out to their cars, and I happened to see a classmate of mine from last term named Chris. I drive by, grab his hand tightly (somehow my left arm was hanging out the window). I say to him, see ya, and as he's walking to his car, he looks over, and I mouth the words "Call 911" to him several times. He just waves, but he waves and smiles in a way that I know he heard me. Now, for some reason, my school has suddenly transformed into Houston Intercontinental Airport. (don't ask me about this one, my brain is weird) As we're driving by, we stop, and somehow this plane is landing, and it has horses flying it. (again, wtf?) So, we stop, pet the horses. Somehow my 2 sisters and mom are now with us, but the carjacker is still with us too. So, we drive to the mall, and we're walking around.....me, my 2 sisters, my mom, and the carjacker, although he's still holding his gun. Suddenly, my 1 sister walks ahead, comes back to my mom and says "They're evacuating the mall, there's a hostage situation". I know by this that Chris had called 911 and informed them of my plight. So, when we're close to an exit, we all bolt for the door and make it out. The gunman is stuck in the mall with me holding the door closed, so I get a cop to come over and hold the door. The gunman didn't run back into the mall, he ended up trying to get out the revolving door. Suffice it to say, he was caught. Out of the corner of my eye, I see Chris (he's quite taller than me), I run over to him, and he's smiling at me. I start crying, jump into his arms, kiss him on his cheek, and say "Thank you. I love you." Now, this part is kinda funny, because Chris is a very straight engaged youth minister. I guess my brain still has the hots for him. Chris, if you're reading this, you already knew that, so don't get all freaked out =) I woke up right after this, and I actually had tears running down my face. Weird!
So, yet another dream that I can't really explain why I had, but, the fact that I got to kiss Chris is the best part. HAHA

Love and the Pursuit of Happiness--
J~

I Want Money....Lots and Lots of Money

I hate being broke, but it's a part of life. I'm so broke right now I can't even pay attention. Ok, not really, but it's close. The move kinda hit me at a bad time, but the move was necessary. I think I'm going to be happy in my new abode.

I'm starting to wonder if anyone is actually reading this, subscribing to this, or anything. Guess I'm going to have to start sending the sitelogs to my email, to see if this endeavour is worth it.

Wondering...
J~

Movement. Motion. Meandering.

Sorry for not updating my blog for a few days. Had some stuff come up that was a bit more important. I moved this weekend (well, still in the process of taking stuff over to the new place) and can't wait to finish moving the rest. I'm not moving far, but will have my own place (ie: sex palace, HAHA!) Anyways, wish me luck.

Other than that, my work is still up in the air as it looks as if we'll be going on strike. It's scary. But, I know that if the union doesn't stand up for us, we'll not get the benefits we deserve.

Please leave a a comment if you like my blog! I'd love to hear your comments. However, any comment posted that is hateful or demeaning will be deleted. This isn't a place to attack me.

Live Long and Prosper! (BANG!)
J~

Sleep is Overrated. Friends are Not.

Today (Monday 18 April) was the first day back to classes at school. I am in there from 8-1130am and back again from 6p-9p on Mondays. Luckily, I have the same teacher for both of my morning classes. Mondays are not going to be my friend. I'll have a maximum of about 4 to 4.5 hours of sleep, and I work both overnight Sunday and Monday. I may have to switch my off day.

Anyways, I'm quite elated. Classmates.com is a great place to rekindle friendships with classmates from years past. For those who don't know, I left in the middle of my 9th grade year to move to Texas, leaving behind many classmates who didn't know where I went. I happened to find one of them on there the other day, wrote him a note, and received a response with the message: "Of course I remember you." Those words mean the world to me. The fact that I had an impact on others so long ago that they remember me 13 years later, it's just truly heartwarming. I'm hoping to chat with him more in the coming days and catch up. He was a good friend back then, and he still is. In contrast to my previous blog posting, it's good to see that there are TRUE friends still out there.

Love and happiness to all--
J~

Friendship

Friendship. It's one of the integral parts of humanity. The need for belonging. The need for someone to feel that someone else cares about them. However, some folks just don't get it, especially gay folks. Friendship means not talking behind someone's back just because you don't like something they did. This seems to be one of the main things that gay guys just don't understand. Recent events of the past few days have opened my eyes. I've learned a few things about a few people I "cared" about that really disturbed me. The whole time that they have been "my friend", they've been discussing their opinions about me behind my back, and it's certainly not good. I understand "gossip", but when it goes so far as it has, it becomes a problem.

I need positive, encouraging, kind people in my life. I don't need negativity. I'm doing the best I can with what I have available, and I don't need someone putting me down at every step of the way. If your life revolves around talking behind others backs, you're not welcome in my life.

J~

Syndication

For those who use Atom news readers, a feed link has been added to the right. Blogger uses Atom. (RSS is only for Blogger Pro users) If you use Safari/Mac or Firefox/PC or Mac, newsreading capability is already there. If not, you can also load the feed into a regular browser and it will show a default layout. Enjoy!

Last day of Freedom

Well, Sunday is here. This is my last day of freedom for a while. Tomorrow, I start the Spring term at school. For those who don't know, I currently attend Cincinnati State, and am working towards a degree in Network Administration. This term I'm taking 19 credit hours. It is going to mean very long days, not a whole lot of sleep, and a LOT of homework. I can make it. I've taken this many classes before and passed with flying colors. The past few terms, I've had all As, which has put me on the Dean's List, which requires you to have an overall GPA of 3.5 or higher. For someone who is working full-time to also attend school full-time and be on the Dean's List, this is a great accomplishment. Wish me luck!

Until next time,
J~

Updates Already!

Instant Messenger info has been added on the right. It has been tested with Firefox/PC, Internet Explorer/PC and Safari/Mac. If you have any problems, leave a comment. I'd appreciate any input!

Thanks
J~

First post

Here's my newest entry into the blog arena. I've tried LiveJournal, but didn't have much success. You may wonder why I decided to do a blog. Why not? I have useless news and information, just like everyone else. ;-)

First off, some announcements:
I still have Gmail invites available. Email me if you're interested.
My Yahoo photo album is available via the Links section on the right side of my blog.
I'll update this page with links to my IM names as soon as I can.

Anyways, enjoy!
J~